破碎的心

破碎的梦

破碎的希望

破碎的感觉

破碎的友情

如果能像拼图一般将它拼凑、

那该有多好。

Maybe I should not feel for him, but it happened. I miss you.

希望四川的人民可以远离伤害

希望所有的朋友可以开开心心

希望他的心会被我的真心打动

希望我越战越勇当一名好老师

希望家人健健康康

希望... ...

                     ‘你会实现吗？’

Hi bloggie,

I just finished my practicum and am having my holidays now. Already went to report at my new school BPS.. Even though it is a totally new environment for me, but i am certain i will be able to strive hard there. Sometimes i look back and reminisce about the good times i have in JSPS, but well life goes on. All good things will come to an end one day right? haha. Don't worry. I feel that God has something in store for me at BPS. That's why it is so true that

" Whatever happens, happens for a reason. "

Will be heading to Taiwan next week from the 9th June to 17th June. My second trip of the year i would say.. This time round i gona let my hair down and shop till i drop! to comfort my shopping crave in Europe. Things there were so " cheap "! hahahahaa..

By the way, this is my itinerary for Taiwan trip. Will be going wif darlin Qianlin, Amber, Xiaohui, Michelle and Mum. The 6 of us will be going Taipei and KaoHsiung ^_^ Must really thank QL and Mich for contributing alot to the coming up of this itinerary proposal! Cheers.

I am sure i will have a fun trip in Taiwan. After coming back, I should be all ready to receive a big challenge awaiting for me! To be a Beginning Teacher!

可以考虑的其它地方：

-          饶河夜市pg43

-          东区路边摊位pg 49

-          Party World pg 61

-          Mr J’s Italian Restaurant

tonight is a really emotional and sentimental night for me... pls don't wonder why.. do let me take a few minutes and express my feelins for some of my frends :) lovely friends.

PART 1

1. Xiaoy ( thanks for ur support regardless of ur busy schedule)
2. ke ying ( thanks for ur concern every now and then )
3. wan wen ( thanks for making me smile =) )
4. qianlin ( thanks to my think-alike sista. great pal and buddy. together, we create noise. :) haha
5. joanna ( thanks for ur company and u made my pract really enjoyable! )
6. ivy ( thanks for ur company during pract)
7. amber ( thanks for giving me luvly nicks.. thanks for the long chats )
8. ningsi ( thanks for watching horror movies wif me. ha )
9. esther ( thanks for ur encouragement and u r a great company.)
10. xuewei ( thanks for bringing happiness to my nie life )
11. michelle ( thanks for visiting me when i had poxy)
12. xinyu ( thanks for ur concern when i had poxy)
13. heather ( thanks for ur concern and chats )
14. stacy ( thanks for ur love and concern )
15. twin ( thanks for ur support and company when i was stressed up)
16. xueni ( thanks for backpacking wif me and those heart-to-heart chats )

at the same time, i wanna take this chance to thank my jie jie. i m currently having chicken pox. and i am unable to eat many foodstuff. she took the trouble to buy me food and cook for me. becox of her, i do not have to starve everyday. 谢谢姐姐！thanks mummy for telling me what not to eat! thanks to qianlin, michelle, amber and joanna who visited me even when i am havin poxy.

i love you all.

weeeeeee! my sista bought wii for me to play! haha... thanks to great recommendation by her colleagues.! now we are so in love wif it..

Games which we are indulging in now

1. Super mario galaxy ( super fun and challenging )
2. Wii sports ( love tennis )
3. Cooking Mama

Games  i plan to buy:

1. Mario kart ( maybe )

Sometimes i asked myself. why do i blog? and there, i have almost forgotten about my blog ever since many things happen in my life. so many things till i am too lazy to blog. no time is perhaps just a plain excuse.. perhaps i neglected the importance of my blog. my blog's presence allows me to reminisce about things that happen last time.. memories be it fond anot... it traces back to the past.. and there for ard a yr, i neglected its presence. and now that i m feelin abit down, i decided to drop in and type out my thoughts. for that, i feel sorry.

ever since i went into NIE in boonlay, things in my life did change alot. i did many things that i have never done before and experienced emotions i have never had before. some make me stronger, some make me happier. but of course.. some make me really down, some attempted to kill me.

of all the things that happen in that particular yr, the happiest time i had was when i was having my TA. i taught for the first time in my life and got to know really adorable and nice kids from my school. i felt really blessed, even till now. the thought of going to school was nothing but happiness in my eyes. i enjoyed what i am doing and deep inside, i knew i fell in love with teaching, and with you, XX.

perhaps becox of my love for u, i have grown so attached to u, XX. the happiness u gave me.. the sweetness in u... u bonded me in u and i realised u are indispensable to me. the thought of losing u.. i am afriad i may not be able to take it.

i thought i was strong and independent and happy. within that yr, i went europe. i realised my dream of backpacking and enjoying the beautiful side of france. strolling at the banks of NICE, admiring the beautiful sunset. i was deeply overwhelmed by what i see. and the backpacking made me stronger.. it makes me feel i am the most blessed person in the world. but back in Singapore, life did went abit tougher. exams and such, feelings of uncertainty got me confused. as always, i became inconfident and doubt my ability at times. what to do? that is just simply me. if i can't change it, i just have to go ahead with it. all these twists and turns got me really drunk. drunk in my own sense. nothing can stop me from having this hangover.

i know that some things will not go the way we want it to be. i know.. but sometimes its just simply hard to take it in stride.

to lose something i like, i take it in stride.

to lose an unworthy friend, i take it in stride.

to lose u, i really don't bear.

XX, if i gona lose u, i had probably cry to death. i tried my best to hold u back, deep inside my arms. in order to stay with you and grow in your presence, i dont know what i shld do now. i feel i should try to let u go.. and stop loving u as if u meant the world to me. perhaps i shld do that. but i am simply not so strong... and i wun force myself to be strong either.

内心的无奈无人了解，脸上的笑容眼中的泪滴无法合一。

我痛、我伤、我悲

上天可否保佑我？

milz

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中
牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后
给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前

丽钏：“很感谢一位好朋友，介绍了这首歌给我。。它叫我感动不已。。不禁让我思考。。人们虽然有眼睛，但是我们看到得是什么？虚假的事实。。　这位歌手虽然看不见东西，但这首歌透漏了他内心的渴望，希望有一天，能找到一对眼睛，带他看看这个世界。其实幸福的人们应该用心去看，而不只是被眼前的一切所蒙蔽。。。”

Haa.. i wonder why i have been procrastinating to blog.. but i believe its time for some updates. :)

after mugging for sometimes, exams have finally been over... hasnt been really sleeping well.. every nite after studying, i had jus close my eyes and recaping on what i have studied. in this sense, it is almost impossible to sleep immediately. in fact, i took more than an hour jus to get asleep. but of cox, i did manage to get some sleep.. all i can say is that, i really tried my best. now it is really up to the teachers i guess.. hopefully,  yea indeed.

so basically i m having my holidays now.. going out
almost every day.. catching up wif my frends whom i
din manage to meet or keep in contact wif. haha but i have spend quite alot in entertainment though.. will have to start shopping for some practicuum clothes.. my teaching assistantship will be in mid end june.. al the way to july..

renewed my passport.. will be heading Msia (kuantan & genting) on 25/5...

some little notices :

1. Happy belated birthday to my roomie, xinyu :)
2. Congrats to xiaoy on getting a job at Delotties (hope i spell correctly) :)
3. congrats to Qianlin and guys for finishing their practicuum soon.
4. Congrats to twin on getting a job.

alrite.. wil update again.. :)

milz (5/5 12.27pm)

人生路上甜苦和喜忧
愿与你分担所有
难免曾经跌倒和等候
要勇敢的抬头
谁愿常躲在避风的港口
宁有波涛汹涌的自由
愿是你心中灯塔的守候
在迷雾中让你看透
阳光总在风雨后
乌云上有睛空
珍惜所有的感动
每一份希望在你手中
阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹
风风雨雨都接受
我一直会在你的左右

Love can be this real. The above lyrics were from a song a lady sang to her husband who had cancer. Even though he was dying, she was still determined to marry the man of her dreams. Against all odds, they got married. But as cruel as fate can be, he died not long after.. But i believe their love has withstand all boundaries and i m sure that lady will keep him forever on her mind..

Love can be so true.

Yes, love can be so real :)

hey ger,

i would like to wish u a very happy and memorable birthday.. :) and i have to tell u this, i miss u tonnes u noe!

cun wait to see u back in sg.. love u buddy.

milz :)

CNY!!

New yr preparation has been rather busy.. from buying clothes to food stuff etc, it has never been easy doin last minute shopping.. from NTUC to wet market, i have definitely enjoyed myself there.. we bought lots of stuff and of course, carrying it was never a breeze.. but i guessed we enjoyed the process... so what is in store for us now? ang baos and such.. hee :p make me sound so greedy! keke.

todae is the first day of CNY.. todae's programme will be as follow:
1) My mother's side relatives(her sista's and families) will all emsemble at my godfather's place at toa payoh
2) Next, we will all set off to Hougang and bai nian at one other relative's house.
3) Then will all set off to amkk and dine at my place. :)

Menu for the nite:
sumptous steamboat dinner =D yum yum. how much i long for it man! but i guess i will be too busy entertaining, will enjoy it later in the nite.. hehe

In the new yr of the Pig, i hope everyone will stay happy and may all wishes come true. As for myself, i sincerely hope to excel in my studies and for all my beloved family and friends to stay healthy... last but not least, for a personal wish yet fulfilled to come true.. i will pray hard :)

milz :) (18/2 1.51 pm)